Many things have been an annoyance lately, one of them relating to messaging. I hate it, HATE, yes although hate is a strong word, I hate whenever I try to get back to someone as quick as I could when they leave me a message but they don’t do the same back. Especially if their message was about something frustrating or bothersome, I respond to show that I’m there if they need to vent about something. In fact, I feel bad that I may not have been there at the exact time they probably needed someone to talk to.

Now I don’t know if it’s just to be polite to ask me what’s been up with me, but I wholeheartedly respond anyways and give a somewhat more lengthy update instead of “it’s ok, nothing much..”. Perhaps, they didn’t really care so I might as well have just left it at “nothing much” but it annoys me when I put time and thought to let them know what I’ve been up to and then I don’t hear anything back from them for DAYS.

You know when I do hear from them? When they’ve got another problem that they want to vent. I’m glad they thought of me to let out their frustrations, but a disregard for the things I have to say makes the things I say feel unimportant. Maybe it’s not as urgent as the things they tell me so I don’t expect an instantaneous response, but something to address that they’ve at least read what I had to say would be nice. I know that a lack of a response doesn’t necessarily mean they think what I say is less important but it certainly doesn’t feel good when it feels like what I’m sharing is pointless. It’s like they tell me what they’ve had to endure the past week and then I try to support them, I tell them something similar that happened to me and their lack of a response and even change of subject is as if they said “uh huh…well…. I BLAH BLAH BLAH AND I THIS AND THAT”.

Am I just thinking too much about this? Maybe it’s because it’s online messaging/email that makes the situation more complicated. Are there rules like, the other person does not have to repsond to address the things you said because it’s implied they have read it or they just haven’t gotten around to responding? If you get a response in a week’s time is it analogous to them responding immediately to you in person or over the phone?

On that note, I want to talk about how texting and messaging online seem to have replaced the ol’ days of talking on the phone and in person. But I’ll save that for another time.

Ever been through a bad breakup and left broken-hearted? You gave him everything, your time, your heart, your tender love and care, but what do you get in return? Do you want to get revenge? Well the perfect revenge would be to live your life better and happier than you’ve ever been while in the relationship. Be happy that you’re free now and don’t have to deal with hurt and tears anymore. Be confident about yourself and in time you’ll find someone who is deserving of you. Trust me, that guy is out there!

I think I can understand why some girls cannot walk away from a relationship even though they have been hurt time and time again. Even when they know that they deserve better and can find someone who will treat them right, they keep going back to that same guy.

Everyone is telling her to forget about him and at times she may be able to fool herself into thinking that she has moved on, but in the end she will always go back and give him that second, third, fourth chance. Is that pathetic? Is she weak?

I think sometimes it’s really hard to deny how you really feel and what you want despite the reality of the situation. Maybe if she had more willpower and restraint she can move on and be much happier in the long run but for now, it’s too hard to pretend she doesn’t want to talk to him and to be with him. Why lie to herself and make herself suffer by pretending it’s not what she wants?

On the bus ride home today I had no music to listen to because I thought the battery of my iTouch was dead. I say that I thought the battery was dead because it wouldn’t turn on when I was waiting for the bus at school, but when I got home it miraculously turned on. Anyways, so I was looking out at the people driving by and I saw this one particular old lady muching on some Crispers while driving. In her right hand she was holding onto the Crispers bag while her left hand was on the steering wheel and holding a $20 bill. I lol’d in my head because I wondered if she was going to wipe her mouth with the $20. I just imagined really rich people who have so much money to spare that they wipe using bills. Love imagination.

On another note, we almost crashed (not really) but there was this car in front of the bus and I guess the (car) driver was undecisive whether he wanted to continue to go straight or turn onto the highway. And so I presumed he slowed down kind of in between and the bus driver had to step on the brakes. The bus jerked a few times and the bus driver honked, which is what almost threw me to the floor (not really). I was just thinking, how unfortunate it would be if a whole bus full of people were to crash into your car from behind. Yikes!